LOVE SKY
Note: This book is a memoir of a girl's journey through five years of her teenage. I have a notion that the period of age ,right from thirteen till eighteen, is a stage where most girls slowly go through changes that define their hearts. The decisions taken during these times , are a stepping stone towards their own psyche. This narration of events takes place in the country of Japan, the inclusion of Japanese traditions along the course of this story is quite natural. All the traditions are researched and can be relied upon for their authenticity.
These excerpts are from the diary of a thirteen year old girl - SAKURA MIKAN { Sakura = cherry blossoms ; Mikan = orange }
This diary belongs to
{Note: the highlighted words are written in Japanese by Mikan.}
Hi!!!!!!!!! My name is Sakura Mikan!!! J
My mom tells me that when I was born, there was a light scent of oranges in the air, even the sky had become orange as the cicadas were screeching…so my mom decided to call me ‘mikan’. SECRET FACT: mom said that I had come out of her belly covered with oranges!! She had eaten a dozen or so just before I had decided to come out!!! :D
27th July 2005
Dear diary-Chan,
Right now I’ve so many thoughts that I think it’s like a water body overflowing from its boundaries!!!!
First things first- mum and dad gave you as a present to me today, though their words representing you were different… they say you’re a thought book! Their words have been glued to my mind in relation to you.. so it is such a confusing greeting that I have presented to you-ARIGATOU!! HAJIMEMASHITA!
I hope we become good friends soon! I want to tell you an incredible number of things but we’ll have to start somewhere, won’t we?? So I’ll start with today and as days pass by, you’ll get to know me better, WATASHI NO SEWA O SHITE KUDASAI!!!!!
I’ve loved writing and reading books since long ago. I tend to be romantic and old fashioned, as a result of it.. man maybe known by the company he keeps but he lives according to the books he reads….books take you through an imaginary and emotional, worldly journey. You always seek what you don’t possess through them.
I’ll introduce you to my family now.
My dad … although he doesn’t smile all the time, he’s very loving towards me , I understand that through his actions.. always teasing me , he considers me a child… his work always seems to be his first priority, I guess he has no choice to follow through it for his family.. his nature towards me is very protective, it sometimes crosses limits and makes me feel very annoyed…sometimes I wish if only he had more faith in me being a grown up…
J Mom’s completely opposite to dad!!! She’s always smiling. She always instinctively knows what I need…. Like ESP or something… gentle like the moonlight, just as dad’s energetic like the sun….
SAORI nee Chan!!! She’s my big sis!!!!! J J J.. she always knows my mood climate..anytime anywhere… as gentle as she’s mischievous, she’s my best friend!! As a person she’s quite strong and possesses a mysterious healing power with her. I’m more of a crybaby and she always hugs me tight n makes me sit on her lap, I love her warmth…that alone heals me like magic. Whether it be wise scolding or understanding decision to support my path,, she has done it all and more… no one can replace her, n I don’t even need anyone else to live… I always show animosity towards her boyfriend as I know he’s going to take her away from me… I always want to be with one Chan!!!
Diary Chan, you know I’ve never ever told anyone these things which I hold close to my heart except for you….
Oh! How forgetful of me!! Today I’ve turned thirteen ^_^ feels good to be a teenager- newfound freedom, cell phone, extended curfew so I can spend more time with friends… anyway its summer break right now so my favorite watermelon ice is the BINGE OF THE DAY!! -_0 I want to go to the beach sometime soon… >_> I love watching the sky very much!! I’ve never thought of the reason though.. does there really have to be a reason to love??? Can’t one love without any reason??? All of the colours, moods and changes have become precious to me…
Well this was a little something about me !! J
Now I’ll be calling Aya Chan to plan our beach trip- by the way aya watanabe is my friend right from elementary school…
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Hey! Aya Chan just came and left from the window like a whirlwind!!!!! {she always does that!!!} we discussed our beach trip n will be going in a couple of days time…
Amazing day that it has been, I feel the fatigue setting in.. soOYASUMI!!!
When the sky had become an Antwerp blue,we went to the souvenir shop. As we were browsing the store, something blue and shiny caught my eye. I glimpsed at it and at that absolute moment , I wanted it.the lava lamp cellphone strap with blue and white with it... Aya asked what I wanted to get so I said, 'THIS!!', I literally shouted at the top of my lungs, which incredibly drowned the other voice in all probability..Beyond the tip of my index finger, I could see another one , opposite to me, apparently pointing at the same object. The first thought popping into my mind was so stupid, it was laughable.. I thought - What a beautiful hand!! Reality hit me when Aya called out to me. My hand was involuntarily ,already placed on the cellphone strap. Inadvertently, his hand was over mine. I felt a sharp tingling on it and jerked away my hand lightening fast. My head was blank as I rose. A surprised expression met my dazed gaze, the eyes were a cerulean blue- the colour of my favourite sky... Such beautiful twinkling eyes, they caught my breath!! His hand was floating inches away from me, as if feeling forlorn that I had rejected it's touch. But I could still experience the tingle which was an entirely new sensation for me!! I .. Was afraid of it. I kept on staring in the blue, trying to find answers.. His perfectly shaped lips opened and a shy ' I'm sorry ' tumbled out. His voice was deep yet gentle and I could almost taste the sincerity in it. Then he lowered his eyes, as if embarrassed and I snapped out of his hypnotic blue, my heart hammering double time against my ribcage. My heart moaned that the blues had disappeared. No sound would crack out of my mouth. His eyes finally peeked at me, they caught me still searching for his cerulean pair and his face turned sideways, an embarrassed hand running through his hair which was hidden by a cap .. He hesitantly began,"as an apology, I'll buy you this strap." I was gradually coming out of my stupor so all I could manage was a small nod while staring at my feet.. I was feeling so hot by the neck but dared not move a fraction...
Thinking back he must have been concerned about my health and he even must have questioned my mental sanity...my expression would have been the worst.... Avoiding eye contact with him so as not to lose in the deep cerulean pools, even when he gave me the strap, I just stretched out my hand and he dropped it in.. UGH!! I must have cast a horrible impression on him!
Thinking bout that cerulean, the sky turned orange and gently a light purple, then darkened into a beautiful blackish inky purple...
What was he doing right now??? Where was he? Would I see him again??
The questions kept on coming like attacking bees in the mind's flower, but they left empty handed as there were no honey filled answers...
31st august 2005
Today’s the last of summer break. Loss of sleep hasn’t affected my physical appearance as its summer. I’ve just been staring at he sky all these days.. as always .. but the thoughts are quite different … sometimes I would find the prefect colour of his eyes…the first term’s going to start tomorrow..
Right now my only hope is to meet him again someday….
Somehow I’m embarrassed to admit it though….i never thought I’d feel this way/// what’s happening to me??????????????????????????/ O_O
1st September 2005
Goodmorning diary Chan!!! I thought through the whole night n what I experienced must be something unreal n moronic.. this morning its my favorite cerulean sky, I sternly am telling myself that,’hey you stupid boy,you’re just someone unrelated to me..how dare you mess up with me?!’…
Will tell you how school’s first day was!!
.......SCHOOL!! Our seating arrangements were according to roll numbers. Fortunately I had a window seat- ^_^ I love watching the sky!! The seat behind me was assigned to a guy named Sakurai Hiroki...
Roll call started and I answered mine, teacher called out the name of the guy who was supposed to sit behind me and BANG the door opened. From faraway, that familiar deep and gentle voice said, "here!!'' which sent a jolt down my spine and my stomach did a somersault in the seat itself.... I whispered that - it can't be, right? How can it be?? I looked towards the source of that strangely familiar and unforgettable voice , again ... I got caught in the cerulean twinkle...... !! I was the last person to look at him, as every head was already turned to him....
He was looking ahead at the teacher. Suddenly his perfectly arched eyebrow twitched slightly and he locked the cerulean laser on me. It felt like my breath was gone ... My ears were abuzz- the questioning bees had come..... He had snapped away the laser-lock and come behind me to take his seat.
Everything was crashing inside me, breaking and shattering, falling down into a bottomless pit....
My heart fluttered as he brushed past my shoulder. A swish of air, a whiff of his luscious scent. It seemed to be earthy, sweet.., hidden behind the earthiness was a light solidity. Like a magnet, my head and back which was leaning forward , had moved towards him .. As if it wasn't me.... I was gravitating towards him-my body, my thoughts.. Everything!
He finally went out of the class at lunch time, I leaned towards him n smelt the peculiar scent which was different this time. It had a little olive mixed in with the citrus and sweet earth…
My heart beating subsided after a long 10 minutes later…. Aya Chan was talking – I heard sakurai hiroki, I inadvertently made my way to her. What my fuzzy brain picked up was in broken sentences- was a delinquent in middle school- good aptitude for studies but no voluntary will to do it n has to be forced – failed all exams but topped finals as threat of dropping class… has a girlfriend who is…. I can’t remember after that as ‘girlfriend’ n ‘has’ pierced my heart like a spear I was snapping at everyone after lunch.. aya was worried n said she would come by… my mind was clear- he already has a girlfriend so naturally I should forget about him. How hard would that be?? It was a chance encounter and there was nothing more to it. A small voice said- but the feelings evoked during that encounter are something enormous that you can’t handle…… my heart’s sky was heavily clouded with no silver lining in sight…..this is what I should get for following the lone butterfly of this stupid emotion…. This pain will be my punishment… I would have to lump it, as the phrase goes…. After I’m plain and ordinary , how would I withstand against a pretty girl …
My painful days have started…
